BOSTON

with the realization that i do NOT miss usd at all while being away for tg break, i delved into the emerson website to reignite an old flame and an old hope. 

i got into emerson with a $16,000 scholarship my senior year of high school. it was my top choice. and my parents wouldn't let me go solely because of the distance. usd seemed like a pretty good option so, because i had a zero percent chance of my parents giving in to my bostonian dreams, i decided to go.

but now i regret giving in (the one time i've ever done so in my life) and truly do not feel that usd is MY school. i know that i am doing some pretty cool things with the paper and my job as a marketing assistant. i know that the school is ranked pretty well (for business), but i just don't feel any strong connection. 

i don't connect well with the people and i don't connect well with the beach party lifestyle. emerson, on the other hand, is my style in every way possible: 

1. big city

2. real weather

3. a million more journalistic opportunities

4. a program designed specifically for magazine production and writing 

5. more serious and genuine media studies students

this school was made specifically for media studies, and the writing/publishing program was made specifically for magazine production. ahem, my life goal is to create my own magazine, and emerson offers a course in which you CREATE YOUR OWN MAGAZINE. ENOUGH SAID.

the people at usd generally suck and i don't think i've had very many real connections. i think my self and my talents would be better appreciated and put to use and allowed to grow in boston. i'm in talks with my parents again. i'm gonna apply and see what kind of scholarship and financial aid i might receive. as unreligious as i am, i will definitely be praying that i am able to transfer to emerson next year. if you know me, that's a pretty big deal. 

ME

with a school year full of election craziness (yaaayyyy obama!), art projects, speeches, latin tests (open-book thank GOD) and weekly issues of The Vista, i rarely ever have time for me. hence why there are never any posts on this supercute blog. i'm pretty sure the main reason i write on it, besides my love of writing, is because of the pink and purple. but last night, on a rare saturday night in, i allowed myself to eat chocolate and read an entire issue of Nylon front to back (the most recent one at that). though i have two past issues sitting on my table under a stack of newspapers and receipts, i was so SO happy to be able to take a (healthy) break from thinking and read about fashion and music. it reminded me why i do everything i do. why i wear the same 4 pieces of crazy jewelry every day, why i write about m.i.a.'s fashion line, why i want to start my own magazine. in the midst of reading i was asked to join a friend in the courtyard to have a cig. that very enjoyable cig break lasted 2 and a half hours and was intermittently freckled with drunken stories from friends arriving home from frat parties and ended with rain sprinkles and gusts of wind, and maybe a raccoon or two, or three. it made me kind of re-fall in in love with usd. i've been contemplating my decision to attend this university, like many of my friends, and i realized that i'm here for a reason, and it's not to appease the many crazy guys i come in contact with, or to talk shit with the cool girls. i'm here because i've already learned so much about myself through so many challenges AND i get to edit The Vista! where else would i have been able to get an editing position that early in my college career? superlucky. 

anyways. the weather in sd is FINALLY cold and there are leaves blowing everywhere and i get to drink hot chocolate with cinnamon and have Campbell's soup at hands on a regular basis (meaning the last 3 days). while i wish there was snow everywhere and i could bundle up with a cutie (whether it be a cat or a guy), i'm happy just typing up a blog post and listening to Beach House (how ironic?).

check out this coolness that my paint created by itself: