rejuvenation

out with old, out with the new, and in with those who've never been old or new. they were just always there. 

living in a film

it is true, my life is a movie. maybe even a best-selling novel. it's fun to have blackmail material. maybe i SHOULD write an autobiography. on a lighter and less time-consuming note, the premiere of Project Runway was beautifully exciting and Jenny Lewis will be releasing her new album, "Acid Tongue" in september. i see sunnier days ahead with some melodic music in the background of my every action. 43 days till san diego and i can leave this psych ward that is ventura county.

think about it

am i controlling? or are YOU weak?

it's an interesting concept. in order for one to feel as though they are being controlled, they do not feel they are strong enough to stand up for what they believe in, want, or feel. why is that the problem of the so-called "controller"? unless you like to play the victim role, don't be weak. stand up for your point of view, otherwise the person that you claim is controlling you has no idea they are doing such a thing, they just think you agree. it's not flattering to claim you've been controlled, it just makes you look like an idiot.

print journalism

i'd give anything to live in new york and be able to intern at my favorite magazine. unfortunately money controls my every move and i must stay in california and hone my skills by working on the vista. how nice would it be, though, to just up and quit college and get an entry level job at a paper or magazine and work my way up to a position in which i make a salary to live off of? i'm too scared to quit college though, as expensive as it costs to remain at usd. what if i were to ruin my future by not finishing school? sometimes i think it's too hard, but then i get a flash of intelligence and realize that it will all be worth it and i will be able to get much farther in the world of journalism with a degree from a good university. in the meantime, i'll begin designing my own magazine so i can work for myself and have the best life ever writing and organizing layouts as i please.

frames

I hate the glasses with no lenses trend.

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